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I'm cold even though i shouldn't be. I am wearing 5 layers of sweatshirts, 2 sweatpants, 2 long socks, a beanie with my hoodie over it, and ski gloves (i look like someone getting ready for a mountain climbing expedition). can't you just picture me....a fat marshmellow(the only time i would ever i mean ever!!! look fat) sitting down my the furnace getting warm. i am hungry, then again when am i not, and i ate all the food in the fridge(which may not be suprising to alot of you). anyways happy thanksgiving everyone. 

things are kind of going down hill again. Many things of which i don't really want to mention on here. My lifes really cluttered and unorganized and my priorities are all screwed up. i just need to get all my thoughts all sorted out. Hopefully by doing this everthing will turn out for the better. If not then things will probably only get worse. I need a vacation. I feel totally mentally and physically drained of energy. All i want to do is sleep away all my problems and never wake up. Every day seems to have no point and it feels like i am getting no where in my life. I have no goal to achieve, no destination that i am headed to. All i am is running in circles without a purpose. I feel like by writing this i am asking for pitty, but i am just trying to convey how i feel and have no better way of doing so. they say the key to happyness comes from within. but its so hard to be happy when the reason why you arn't comes from the same place that happyness is supposed to be found.